Hurt heart

Burdened shoulders behind the smiles.

My head hurts. Been at the notes too much.
My heart hurts as well.
Curiosity kills the cat, they say. It killed me today, tonight. Thanks.

I failed once when I was 13.
I failed again when I was 15.
Now I'm 18 already. Got a hunch that I failed at it again.

Try to hide it eyy? Suddenly there came events, or rather blogs and tagboards, that led me to it. Not exactly sure whether to believe it anot. As much I don't want to accept the facts, it may all be happening in the real world outside my oh-so bubbly bubble. Boys are dumb, I know that one. And I'm a boy nonetheless.
Maybe I'm just the guy who thinks too much. Maybe.
I'm giving her the benefit of the doubt tonight. Just let it pass. Whoosh.

Smile Farhan smile. Try to. You're graduating later.


"You. Epitome of perfection."